What Have I done?

What have I done to deserve this cold feeling?
What have I done to feel so desperately lost?
What is it about me that makes me so unwanted?
What have I done to have this hatred embossed?

Why can't I be seen for who I am?
Why can't people look at me without disgust?
I can't be that ugly, in the literal sense.
So why is is popularity that I lust?

What have I done in my life to make me so confused?
Have I done anything against anyone?
What makes me so despised and reviled?
Why couldn't they choose someone else to shun?

If only I could change.
If only I could be new.
Stop this scared stare.
And see life with a better view.

Nightless days and dayless nights.
I don't sleep.
I am the living dead.
In my crypt, I keep.

So let me feel dismantled.
Let me feel like hell.
Just think yourself lucky.
You're not like me as well.

What have I done wrong? Absolutely nothing.
I was just the first to back down.
I showed fear in the face of danger.
No matter how strong I get...
I will always be burdened with this fools crown...