Eternity and a Day - The Day After

I waited past the eternity and a day, you were finally mine.
I felt my body lift and drift through time.
But, just at the the point of feeling stronger,
You tear me in half by saying, "Please, wait longer."

I ask for how long, but you give no time span.
What worries me is, I never doubted I can.
I'd wait 'til mountains fell and seas boiled.
But have I no reward for all I have toiled?

An eternity a day, I waited. A personal hell.
But even if I don't have you, at least you are well.
So, to my summit, I go and wait.
Maybe someday, life will open a gate.

My time is short and life is hard.
My body was broken, battered and scarred.
So what do I do now? My angel has gone?
All I can think about is, "Where did I go wrong?"

My final life line, the last piece of hope.
She's gone, and so has the ascending rope.
So now I'm falling with no crash mat.
But I won't land on my feet like a cat.

But into this chasm I may fall.
Still, I will rake my fingers against the wall.
I will return to where I was, where it was good.
Even if my fingers, body and soul are saturated with blood.

But my dear angel, I never blamed you.
Like the world, you did what you had to do.
You said you knew how much you'd hurt me.
You have no idea... You have to see...

I'll writhe in anger and feel this pain,
While the world gazes at me in horrific distain.
My life is resolving with a hollow fate.
So, forever, I will live tainted wait...

((Dedicated to the angel who ascended out of reach... :( p.s. angel, if you're reading, I still love you, no matter where you go...))