Just Kids...

(Warning!!! If you are easily disturbed or offended, do not read!!!)

It's completely silent, but, anger begins to rise in me like steam from a kettle, starting from a push to a whistle, making me feel the rage make my adrenaline push me beyond my limits before I finally release the pressure in one violent outburst.

But I don't. I let it pass me by and just eject the anger, but it won't eject. It stays inside me and stores like the water, boiling more the next time. Drawing me up to do bad things. Forcing me to hurt "them", just so they can know how I feel. Even if it is just for one second, I want them to know that they make my life a living hell. I want them to feel the pain in me. Pointing the finger, I try to find excuse but I know the truth. I want to do this. I want to hurt them. I want them to feel the excruciating pain I bear as a weight every day.

They pushed, they pulled and dragged me around as if I were nothing.

No More.

This is it.

I feel it.

The anger is finally about to release.

Palms sweating, brow dripping, blood pouring, anger raging, tempers flaring and the madness, calculation, precision and desire.

I stand and look them in the eye. They know. They know they've pushed me too far. I have taken more than enough. Time has called on me now. I don't care if I die now. But they will die with me. I will drag each one of their f***ing souls into hell. The same way they dragged mine. I hate them. They revile me and as I use the anger to beat them to death, the release is so powerfully wonderful, that I must feel more, constantly. I must hurt them. I keep going, through all the screams, all the cries and all the pleads of mercy. They never gave me it.

Others find me, covered now, head to toe in blood, 10% mine. I can't stop. I'm still beating on the dead body, hoping that exhilarating feeling returns and as the others drag me away, I struggle and pull just to get back to them. I need to hurt them more. I'm not satisfied yet!!

I'm rocking back and forth. One wrong action and now I'm insane.
They gave me a lifetime of wrong actions and they are thought of as "just kids".